Well, after such a lenthy absence from my blog, due to much much work, and gaining the knowledge that a few of our dear friends are rather concerned about me/us, I felt that I should be so kind as to update everyone. So, take a deep breathe ya'll....
As far as my partner and I, we are fine and there are no troubles in our relationship. We love each other just as we always have, if not even deeper. So, let's put any concerns that there is trouble on the homefront.
Next, the previous post was one that was written in an effort to verbalize my unhappiness with my current job. I have worked for this company for 5 years and "thought" and "believed" that I would retire with them. The idea of growth and travel was such a promising aspect for me and I was, yes was, 100% on board. For those of you who really know me and my past, you will attest that I am no stranger to hard work. I have had to work for anything and everything that I have ever had. So, work does not frighten me. We relocated to Nashville back in July with the hopes and promise that I was still building and securing my future with this company. Since moving here, my eyes have opened up and I have become ever more aware of the consequences of my decision to move up that corporate ladder. Yes, it all sounds glamorous and exciting. Who wouldn't want to be the "Big Boss Man"? Well, that is what I thought.
For every year that I have worked in retail, I have discovered that I have lost more and more enjoyment of the holiday season. This year has not been exempt either. I honestly could have gone through this holiday without any decoration or celebration whatsoever. No tree, no lights, no cards, no holiday aromas, NOTHING.... I was so over it. Yep, Mr. Scrooge...
The more I thought about it, the more I despised the holiday. Eventually, I did not even like the person that was looking back at me in the mirror. I was no longer me. Unhappy and depressed. That is what was effecting life at home. I needed to make a change and quick.
After many restless nights, consideration and discussion, I felt that in order for me to "get back to my happy place", I needed to make a change in my career. I was so jaded about retail. I thought that this company was so totally different than all of the rest. In most aspects it is. But in the end, all retail is the same. One goal, make money, more money, more money.....and by any means. Ultimately, I have grown to dislike what I do. Therefore, the need for change. When one wakes in the morning, gets dressed for work, and walks through those doors, there should be a certain, genuine feeling that overcomes us. It is a warm, fuzzy feeling that excites you and makes you want to do what ever it is that you do. That feeling my friends has been absent for sometime.
Now, I could go on and on about my feelings. Maybe I should write a book or something. I will save some for another post.
Last night I watched The Devil Wears Prada. OMG, I was so the character Andrea. Going through the daily bump and grind and getting all caught up in the hustle and bustle. So deep into "my world" that I was turning my back on those that I loved and needed the most. One of the lines from the movie goes something like this, "When you are doing great at work, life at home is rocky. When you are up for promotion, life tends to go up in flames." That is not the exact quote but close enough for you all to get the idea. That line hit me like a ton of bricks. WOW....never thought of things that way.
Don't get me wrong, working for this company has not been a mistake. It was right and necessary. The growth and maturity that I have gained while employed here is priceless. Lessons that shall carry me through the next leg of my journey through life. Now, I just need to enjoy it again. I have been so caught up in looking at the finish line that I can not enjoy the race. So, time to take a break and get back to what I know and enjoy......FOOD.
That being said, it is now secret by now that we have made the decision to move back to Memphis by spring. I will start work the last week of January doing what I do best........
More to come later.
Thanks for all of your support and concern. Each and everyone of you mean so, so much to me.
unt
As far as my partner and I, we are fine and there are no troubles in our relationship. We love each other just as we always have, if not even deeper. So, let's put any concerns that there is trouble on the homefront.
Next, the previous post was one that was written in an effort to verbalize my unhappiness with my current job. I have worked for this company for 5 years and "thought" and "believed" that I would retire with them. The idea of growth and travel was such a promising aspect for me and I was, yes was, 100% on board. For those of you who really know me and my past, you will attest that I am no stranger to hard work. I have had to work for anything and everything that I have ever had. So, work does not frighten me. We relocated to Nashville back in July with the hopes and promise that I was still building and securing my future with this company. Since moving here, my eyes have opened up and I have become ever more aware of the consequences of my decision to move up that corporate ladder. Yes, it all sounds glamorous and exciting. Who wouldn't want to be the "Big Boss Man"? Well, that is what I thought.
For every year that I have worked in retail, I have discovered that I have lost more and more enjoyment of the holiday season. This year has not been exempt either. I honestly could have gone through this holiday without any decoration or celebration whatsoever. No tree, no lights, no cards, no holiday aromas, NOTHING.... I was so over it. Yep, Mr. Scrooge...
The more I thought about it, the more I despised the holiday. Eventually, I did not even like the person that was looking back at me in the mirror. I was no longer me. Unhappy and depressed. That is what was effecting life at home. I needed to make a change and quick.
After many restless nights, consideration and discussion, I felt that in order for me to "get back to my happy place", I needed to make a change in my career. I was so jaded about retail. I thought that this company was so totally different than all of the rest. In most aspects it is. But in the end, all retail is the same. One goal, make money, more money, more money.....and by any means. Ultimately, I have grown to dislike what I do. Therefore, the need for change. When one wakes in the morning, gets dressed for work, and walks through those doors, there should be a certain, genuine feeling that overcomes us. It is a warm, fuzzy feeling that excites you and makes you want to do what ever it is that you do. That feeling my friends has been absent for sometime.
Now, I could go on and on about my feelings. Maybe I should write a book or something. I will save some for another post.
Last night I watched The Devil Wears Prada. OMG, I was so the character Andrea. Going through the daily bump and grind and getting all caught up in the hustle and bustle. So deep into "my world" that I was turning my back on those that I loved and needed the most. One of the lines from the movie goes something like this, "When you are doing great at work, life at home is rocky. When you are up for promotion, life tends to go up in flames." That is not the exact quote but close enough for you all to get the idea. That line hit me like a ton of bricks. WOW....never thought of things that way.
Don't get me wrong, working for this company has not been a mistake. It was right and necessary. The growth and maturity that I have gained while employed here is priceless. Lessons that shall carry me through the next leg of my journey through life. Now, I just need to enjoy it again. I have been so caught up in looking at the finish line that I can not enjoy the race. So, time to take a break and get back to what I know and enjoy......FOOD.
That being said, it is now secret by now that we have made the decision to move back to Memphis by spring. I will start work the last week of January doing what I do best........
More to come later.
Thanks for all of your support and concern. Each and everyone of you mean so, so much to me.
unt
posted by the chef at 8:03 AM
2 Comments:
Glad to hear that you've seen a new light to move toward...Can't wait for you boys to be back in Memphis. The family hasn't been the same without you. Love ya!
all i can say is ... tears of joy :)
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